Last
year, I bought a copy of Arun shourie’s book named “Does he know a mother’s
heart?” This book is a little bit different from his other works. In this, he
narrates his personal life, but not in full. Shourie mainly seeks the ‘reason
for suffering’ of people, as depicted in various religious scriptures. As one
can expect, there arises many contradictions. So, the book exposes and attacks
all the scriptures and the contradictions. Many books criticizing religion and
beliefs are available in the market. But Shourie’s work concentrates on the
inadequacy of the explanation for suffering, as given in various religious
scriptures.
My belief in religion starts from my
childhood days. From my grandparents it descended to me. Every evening I used
to listen to mythological stories about the deities Siva, Krishna, etc narrated
by them. Hindu mythologies are vast and deep like the ocean. Everything from
nail to ‘Pushpaka Vimana’, from termite to elephant plays varied roles in these
stories. Though such stories were showered in plentiful into my tender ears I
did not consider myself as a hard devotee of any of these idols. Even when I
believed, it was not blind belief. Even while disbelieving, there is no harsh
heresy. I think rationality has always got a place in Hindu thoughts.
Rationality – saving one from tilting to either of the extremes of blind belief
or heresy - it is always felt as a pacifying factor.
Erosion in my religious beliefs
started with the decline of my hearing ability. By the time I was 20, I became
totally confused. Why the medical treatments failed, making the ardent
prayers of my relatives and mine ineffective? Why this disability fell on me
rather than on a cruel man? The answers to these questions I got, pointed to
and underlined the fact that the human life is purely mechanical - it is not
controlled by any super natural agency. But because of the absence of first
cause, I thought God might have created world - but He is not controlling his
creation. I told this idea to many. But they only confined their opinions in a
smile. As days passed, I understood personally that even this concept of God
falls roughly in Yoga System, in a critical study. A deistic God; God created
the world - but not running it. Then I came to realise - there are many more
ways than what I thought before, to be a Hindu. Hinduism’s framework can
contain even an atheist or a nihilist. From then on, I loved to be in the fold
of Hinduism. But God remained as a mystery to me.
My parents and relatives are very
religious minded people. But whenever I asked them why this misfortune fell on
me, their reply was in resonance with the medical doctors, rather than with the
priests. I had well planned to resist them, if they come up with replies
like fate or Karma. Such arguments have no place here. We don’t have to read
any particular book to wake up to this truth. Just need to keep a rational mind
- that will do. My relatives have answered to my query - ‘nerve is weak’, ‘Vitamin
deficiency’ - etc. No one told me that it is 'God's Will '. Thus I lost a
chance to fight with the ‘believers’.
I know it is my severe mental
suffering that drove me away from gods. What all I had in my mind for years, is
beautifully narrated by the truly eminent writer, Mr Shourie. When my eyes ran
through the pages of ‘Does he know a
mother’s heart’, I was not overpowered by the ideas presented there, because
they were not unfamiliar to me.
Arun Shourie portrayed the picture of
many sufferers, who turned agnostic.
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